Mr. Bobby & Mr. Gucci <3
Thursday, December 04, 2008
12:26 AM

i didnt know "再见,小雪" this show can make me sooo emo. ))x
this is a very sad show okay!
i dont want to say out the whole story but if u are interested, u can come my hse and watch it.
but this show make me rmb alot of things..

like..
how bobby used to protect me when daddy beat me T_T
how we used to play hide&seek
how he put his head on my leg and fall asleep
how he act cute infront of me
and more...


so sad lor!
up til now, i am stil crying lor!


btw, this will be my last post make in this blog.
cause..
i don like people to read my blog and my history and then pity me.
and of coz, i will be changing to a completely new blog but i might not delete this blog.
lolx.
so good luck in hunting my new blog ;P


BYE!

&the beauty.

Sunday, November 30, 2008
1:58 AM

i just need to calm myself down.
sleeping alone ain't no any big deal.
afterall, i m always alone....

but why this time it hurts more than usual.
the moment i close my eyes,
its all scenes of u jumping out of the window, crying for help.
and worst come to worst, it was having a downpour.
baby, that hurts, am i right to say that?
OR
do i have the rights to even say that?



对不起。
我还不想忘记你所以会想你。。
因为,是我笨笨的把你还死的。。
叫我该如何忘记你,忘记是我害死你的。。
不是我不想忘记你, 而是我办不到。。


when can i eever fall asleep without using my tears to bring me to bed?

&the beauty.

12:51 AM

if only..
fireworks last.

but if it were to last,
will we even find it so amazing/WOW/fantasy?


happy moment never once last,
cause if it were to last,
you wouldn't learm to cherish it.


afterall..
i m just A esther..


♥ being random
(=

&the beauty.

Thursday, November 27, 2008
6:24 PM























i m fading aaway yet no one ever notice it.


&the beauty.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008
11:17 PM

met up with dys to np for late lunch. and as usual, she take some pic even before i start eating. -__________- i had unagi while she had salmon. then randomly ask her to come my house to surf the net. so on both notebook, one for me and another one for me. HEHEHE! so we dont have to share. then sent her off back to zoo. *giggles*

maybe next tue i shall meet dys at town for a haircut! its time to cut my stupid hair. LOL! i love tueday. my dating day with dys! ;P


no more motivation to work in cathay anymore..
no more that kind of impulse to work either...


ときどきあなたがいなくて残念に思って私が静めて、あなたのキスしたくなるような毛皮と全部、あなたが知っていさえしています?

&the beauty.

12:53 AM

I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy, I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that's a privilege
I had you back at the answers
You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended, battled and fought
Cuz I really tought you loved me
I don't know where to start or where to stop
No, but I know I am done
I've had enough

&the beauty.

Saturday, November 22, 2008
11:40 PM

"Esther, from what i see she's a workaholic.BUT she never fails to meet up with her friends and family when she's not working.yeah, its fair enough so to speak.her life changed drastically after a so called mid-life crisis occuredyeah, its spelled Drastically with a capital D.D for Daren :D < see its a D < see its a D < see its a D.okay anyway.I was there with her during that day. It was raining; clearly.her face immediately changed from sky high to drop dead.but if you want me to sum up with 3 words from this experience, it goes "LIFE GOES ON.... YEAH..."okay, 4 words. "

shit you, daren chan.
you love to see me emo, thats it.
& i hate you so much for wearing that black tee out everytime when we meet and say that its cause of me that u buy it.
& i hate you so much for always asking me not to cry and always mention about stuffs that hurt me TOTALLY.
& i hate you so much for constantly reminding me of what happened THAT day.

but out of all this, i still love u as much as i love anyone. (:

because...
after that crisis, you keep me accompany whenever i need someone.
and.............
i cnt wait for christmas party at ur house!
(:



----THE END OF DAREN CHAN---




i dono what should i do then i can abandon those memories i had..

everything change for the better alrdy but i stil cant forget a single bits of it. i still remember how dad used to gan my mother.. i still remember waiting for my parents to fetch me home from childcare when everyone has alrdy went home.. i still remember eating outside food daily.. i still remember taking sch bus home when all my friends had their parents to fetch them home... i still remember even more worst thing....

BUT,
i got the sweeetest you with me for 1000days before.
my Mr. Bobdog. (:

BUT,
......................
......................
......................



---THE END OF MY RUBBISH---



sometimes i wonder, m i a rubbish woman?
everything i say seems to be rubbish!
damn it.



toodles.

&the beauty.

Friday, November 21, 2008
2:04 AM

ESTHER IS VERY HAPPY OKAYYYYYYYYY..............


dono why.. today is a good day for me.. xD

firstly, i got A for my c# lab test 1.
am really happy to know that i got A.
joy of happinessss.
like i didnt even expected an A but whee, i got it.
ESTHER LIANG GOT IT!!!
ESTHER LIANG IS SO LUCKY TO GOTTA AN A.... ;P
c#, no longer seems diffcult to me anymore..
but... i hope i will continue to get A for my next lab test and so on..

secondly, PD lecturer asked me what kind of person i am.
so i chose, "always depend others for answer. doubt own ability."
then he ask me is it because i got no confidence? and i guess so.
but anway!
he share with the class something about me.
he say among the class, i make the most improvement. ;P
HEHEHEE!
cause the first time he saw me, he think alamak..
but now, he can see alertness in me and he think i improve by ALOT...

thirdly, i got mystery shopper!!!!
and i passed!!
wahhh.. so happy..
cause i think i m retarded when i serve customer..
and my queue always so long..
and my hands are like my leg -.-
and my one customer can be yw 3 customeer.
lolx.
and the mystery shoopper even write, esther is helpful ;P
and yea, i m happy la!
cause got praised by someone i dono..

fourthly, someone say i m quite sweet ;P
a very random sentence.
but i told him if he were to be in my class, he wouldnt think so. -.-
my true self is violent!!!!!!!!!

its amazing at how all these small things manage to make my day.
XD

believe in sunshine after rain.
and it certainly will be sunshine after rain ;P

&the beauty.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008
3:53 PM

i swear this gona be an emo post.
leave if you cant take it.


现在正在下雨。。

现在是 3:55pm。。

好久, 好久, 没有这么早到家之从宝贝离开我。。

宝贝对我很好但我从不珍惜。。

他永远都在我身边如果我需要他。。

但自私的我,从没想过他会有需要我的时候。。

就因为我自私而间接的把我唯一最亲的宝贝给害死了。。

没有人知道,我也很痛苦。。

到现在,还是会想他想到哭几小时。。

尤其是下雨天,会令我特别想他。。


以前,梦想开狗店。。

但是,你离开我的时候,梦想开狗店也离开我了。。

你的离开, 我不止失去你,也失去了我自己。。


今天回家的时候突然下大雨。。

不知不觉,眼泪就掉下来了。。

脚步也慢了很多。。

明明已抵达家楼下了,又不能回家。。

担心会有人在家而发现我哭了。。

等到眼睛已经不红了才回家。。

看到Mr. GUCCI, 不知不觉,就微笑了。。


不喜欢去人多的地方,不是因为很挤。。

而是因为在人多的地方, 会显得我没朋友。。

不喜欢庆祝生日,不是因为我不想。。

而是不想在我生日那天,发现自己没朋友。。

不喜欢约人出去,不是因为我懒惰。。

而是...........................................


1k days.

afterall,

what may seems to be prefect, maybe not.

i do and always appear cheerful and that keeps me going. XD

and you?

&the beauty.

1:29 AM

maybe my blog is really my reflected area afterall..
let me reflect how dumb i am afterall.. ;P



sunday(:
work in the morning then went to find dys and tri for dinner at yishun area ;P dys brought us to a coffeeshop for western food. the fried rice is nice XD then we chit-chatted. hehehee! then dono why i wanted say downtown east become downtown earth -.-" then while walking, almost fall TWICE. and obviously, dys and tri laughed at me... as usual la! "SO TYPICAL OF THEM LOR." then we all buying FOX hoodiess.. hehehe! dys buying brown, tri buying red.. as for me.. either black or green ;P thn went pet shop. brought $80++ stuffs for my baobei again. i so in love with him <3


monday(:
fnet cancel but have makeup lesson. ZZZ! went to do project instead but think we chaatting lor! su even watching money not enough 2. hehehee! but i think we are all tired ba. oh ya, not forgetting, we even dapao wedges, nuggets and each a cup to blk L432. hehehee! then got china people come visit then su there waaving to them. lol! then home sweet home..


tue(:
bring laptop to school. then went to cisco.net try out my username and password again. still cant log in so called fnet teacher. THEN YOU KNOW WHY I CNT LOG IN ANOT?!? cause i actually so dumb that i went to the wrong website till qinguo tell me. -.-" ahhhhhhh. i must learn to be smarter!!! and i believe i will. ;P btw, qg brought me a hp pouch. hehee! but its green then ask him wat color is it cause he abit colorblind ;X but he manage to tell me its green la.. then use it lor.. but still prefer the one i buy for myself T_T then after sch, meet oyl. WAH.. thanks to him.... my fnet.. hehehehee :) so happy k.. then wh came to meet us shortly then we went to amk hub to watch mada... then went for staff meeting.. and i got a lion hp chain la!!! thanks to glen lor. i actually have zebra thn i went to him say i wan lion and he give me his.. hehee! so love the lion lor.. thn went dinner with oyl, wh and sebastian at s11. oyl tell us alot of stories at cineplex cathay. all so OMG.. freaking shock lor! eeeee.. thn home sweet home and lucky sebastian went to 7-11 buy things cause i freaking forgotten all about my notebook -.-" sometimes i really wonder.... am i retarded or what.... and this time round, home sweet home ;P





do i look cheerful on the surface?
and damn emo on blog?
so which is my true feeling?
even i, myself, also dono the ans lor.

&the beauty.

Sunday, November 16, 2008
10:08 PM

my life is in a fucking mess.
thats all i can say.


chhheeeebye.






i tell you arh,
i seriously wish i get bang down by a speeding car tmr.



mummy so poor thing. ):
meed constant care always but i cnt give her that.
neither can anyone do that.
i dono what to do.
seeing her like this, make me vexed.

&the beauty.

lilmissbobdog;

Mr. Bobby <3
retard;
clusmy;
typical;


loves & hates


hate-
garlic; crowded places; reality;


love-
Mr. Bobby XD;
Mr. Gucci; nua at home; sleep; eat; money;


desires

a better tmr;
to be rich;
to have Mr. Bobby by my side;

whisper





Sometimes when we touch y Olivia Ong

precious;

EI o8o5
Cindy Ng chye wei
Feng joo yu
Lee shi ying

5/1`o7
Gladys Heng; Bestie
Daren Chan
Eugene Tan
Azizi
Lai Shiyun
Lee Wei liang
Neo Yeow Wei
Tan Wei hao

friends
Andy Yek^guess watch
stephanie^guess
eliza^guess


YEE WEN^cathay XD
Timothy^cathay
Thompson^cathay
eugenia^cathay
xiao qi^cathay
thanya^cathay
Kenneth^cathay

Vinna

tsl`nps:)

martin`junior!
joseph`junior!
audrey`junior!
kimberley`junior!
sarah`junior!
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